Bittersweet November
Thanksgiving - Thanksanukah - is late this year. M and I celebrate our "going steady" anniversary at Thanksgiving. 2013 makes 19 years together. It seems both a long time and just a blink of an eye. I guess that goes for time generally.
I meant to blog about the epic adventure that was our London
trip in the days off after we returned home last week, but I just didn't get
around to it. I took notes and everything. And now another life event--a
passing of a life--has happened and it's hard to focus on anything else.
Grandma hadn't been doing well the last few months and I was
grateful that Uncle Lloyd found a place for her in a nursing home where she
could get more attentive care. But she was back in the ER this week with GI
issues that at first seemed surmountable but turned out not to be. She died in the hours before Thanksgiving dawned. I'm not
shocked--I feel like I've been waiting for this news for a decade and Grandma
had expressed, strongly, her desire to stay out of nursing homes and in that
regard I'm also grateful that she didn't have to endure those surroundings for
long--but it's still hard to take, hard to believe that Grandma has gone.
I've been lucky not to have very many people pass away in my
life, even at my age, so maybe that's why I feel somehow unprepared. I was hoping of
course that she'd be one of the few to live to 110, 115…but ever since Vista
Manor in Wilbur closed, life must have gotten much harder for her. I didn't
want her to spend years locked in a mortal coil that could no longer support
her bright and vital spirit. I am, selfishly, grateful that she lived for as
long as she did. She seemed to be able to strike a balance between nurturing
herself and her creative drive, and also being selfless, an example I want to
emulate. She nurtured her relationships--with people, with animals, with the places
she inhabited. She rarely spoke critically of anyone or anything. She tried to
see everyone's perspective. She just wanted everyone to get along and be happy.
That is a most worthy legacy. Grandma, I promise I will try to be more like
you.
1 Comments:
34Very nice grandchildren photo!
And a wonderful tribute to her, Suzi. I'm sure that she felt very fortunate to have you for a granddaughter!
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