Tomcat April 2001-April 9, 2005

tomcat washed out
Originally uploaded by suzipaw.

Tomcat's kidneys didn't regain their functions, so we put him down yesterday. I was completely awash in grief yesterday, and today it's guilt. I should've taken him to the vet right away on Wednesday rather than waiting til Thursday morning. I miss him terribly. He loved me so much. He was an innocent, and lost his life because of my preoccupation and niggardliness. I feel horrible--that word doesn't even being to express the mixture of pain and self-loathing and remorse and stupidity and selfishness--I AM horrible.